I’m an imposter.

Imposter syndrome.

It sneaks up on all of us. One day you’re walking along, being all “whatever” and suddenly it hits you – Who do I think I am? Why do I think I’m allowed to partake in whateverthethingisyouwerealreadydoinganyway?

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I’m not in anyway an official historian, but I find the history of Salem to be a fascinating world and I LOVE reading about it. If you know me at all, you already know that I love dissecting cultural studies about the history of women healers – midwifes, women who used herbs to heal, stuff like that – and the political ramifications of the patriarchy on their work. Because of this passion, I recently had an incredible opportunity to start a history podcast. The whole thing happened kind of by accident, but I am obsessed. Each time I sit at the mic I wonder, “How can I possibly be allowed to do this? I’m not an expert! I don’t know what I’m doing!”… then the next topic comes up and I can’t wait to sit down and record again.

I’m also not an official writer – I’m not published, I don’t write much of interest to anyone but myself and maybe my loves who are the most amazing supporters of every crazy idea I’ve ever had. That said, I am considering submitting a gothic short story to a local women owned publishing company – mostly because AHHH! LOCAL WOMEN OWNED PUBLISHING COMPANY! But… I’ll likely submit under a different name. #youknowjustincase.

BUT WAIT.

For real…. Just take the fricken donut, robyn. Why is this so hard? Why is it so easy to imagine everyone else thinking you an imposter and not actually do the thing?

img_94372018 is the year of “life.” 18 is lucky in Chinese culture.  The Hebrew word for life (“chai”) has the value of 18. In Tarot, 18 is associated with the moon – a symbol of mystery & intuition. It’s time. This year needs to be the year I stop being afraid of my creativity, my knowledge, of my writing. Stop being afraid.

It’s time to step out of the proverbial comfort zones and do the things. Read more. Write More. Podcast more. Just make stuff – create stuff – be creative.

How will you live the live in this year of 18? What will you do to be creative? Help me stay motivated by sharing your stories.

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